Lauryn120

Nothing compares to his smoldering eyes
The way they look into my own eyes and soul
Every time my heart flutters even faster for them
because I've never had another heart besides my own

Nothing compares to his little half smile
the one he gives while he's deep within me
I've never felt such a sense of intimacy
as I do when I hear his rhythmic heart beat

Nothing compares to those strong arms that hold me
Hold me in the night when the fear takes over
I've never felt as safe and protected by someone
as I do under my Baby's covers

Nothing compares to his gentle, yet, tough heart
The one that gets worried and afraid
but also the one that is so tough, strong, and fearless
The one that comforts me until I'm okay

Absolutely nothing compares to you

my heartbeat is beating faster than it should
im stuck in a world that beats me to peices
my veins are withholding the poison
in which you injected

i know only time will tell if im healed
yet i will stand up and fight for myself
i will fight until theres nothing left
to win this battle agwinst the devil

Meet me in the dark
Feel the bittersweet emptiness
Slide the knife along my thighs
Let me bleed.

Death is all I think about. No one understands. There's this big ache inside. She already has someone new. And she was cheating. To much is changing. One of my bestest friends just found out her husband has cancer. I feel so unwanted. I'm crying so much and I can't sleep. I go to school and just sit. My friends don't know what's been going on. Yesterday I didn't realize I was crying until one of my friends asked me what was wrong. This pain is so big. I can't take this anymore.

Well I am officially thinking of deactivating my account on here. I'm tired of getting hurt and getting told to grow up. I thought that she cared for me but I now know she doesn't. What's the since of living if she doesn't care. I have nothing to live for without her. And now I know she never really cared and that's what hurts most. Knowing that no one will ever love me the way I thought she did. No one will ever call me dear or baby again. Because soon I won't be able to handle the heartbreak. I can only handle so much before I try something.